Many who’ve talked to me have probably heard me say that I’m stressed and overwhelmed. I’ve had a bad habit of generally not saying no to work, getting myself into more and more commissions. And honestly, I’ve needed to, just to pay rent and even buy dinner–all while still trying to finish my degree.
But this has gotten myself into a terrible crunch. Currently I have:
- 19 commissions (a handful of which are about a year old)
- 4 group art projects I’m current participating in
- A NSFW comic I have already collected pre-orders for (and was due in last February)
- Patreon content due every month
- And a webcomic series I desperately want to start
The webcomic especially is something near and dear to my heart. I’ve had people asking me to post more of my OCs for it (like Erika). And lord knows that makes me so happy. In all the years I’ve been an artist, I’ve almost exclusively drawn commissions or other people’s original content or general fanart. I’ve barely drawn anything of my own original content for myself, and it’s frankly starting to cause me a great deal of depression. As an artist, I need that outlet. And yet, I just can’t justify the time to draw for that project with everything else weighing down on me.
Most of these are things that I need/want to finish this summer, before school starts again. I will likely have to take on more commission work just to make sure I don’t get evicted this summer too. Money is extra tight, as I have to support my family.
Fact is, I’m unbelievably stressed. But I’ve been doing what I can to not burn myself out and give myself a nervous break down. That has meant taking regular breaks and self-care; and I see a therapist for anxiety. So far so good, but that results in progress on getting past all this has sometimes has been slow.
I get people asking me for perfectly reasonable updates on their commission, when I often don’t have anything for them. I get messages about new work offers that I neglect to respond for days at a time, because I just don’t have the psychological energy to communicate some days. So I hope this message counts a broad update and explanation to everyone. I’m trying. I will get everything done, it just may not be done in fast or efficient ways. Please continue to be patient with me.